I need a very specific support group or community of people that likely don’t exist because literally who else could be going through a similar time like me?
I hope no one, because no empath deserves to feel like they failed. I’m struggling to not feel that way right now. I want to believe that I didn’t do as much as I did, but damn it, my brain is only realizing now as it unpacks all this emotion how much of me went into that.
Being an empath, sucks, by the way. Literally. You can go MONTHS without realizing you completely forgot about yourself and what you need. Props to the ones that have it figured out, but I’m still struggling.
It’s a struggle being pushed away by someone you stood by and supported as well. It’s hard stepping back and giving them space as if you did something wrong… And if you did do something wrong, not having any clue what it is, which is the pattern I’m most wanting to break out of thinking. Even though you understand why everything is happening and that it needs to happen, it just feels incomplete, and that’s the part that irks the most.
I’m tired and sad and just want things to be the way they were in some respects. It won’t ever be the same, but the company would be and that’s all I want.

